We went to see him as a family in the hospital yesterday it was surreal to see him so fucked up looking. His body ravished and thin, hot with fever. Weak like baby and ashy. Seeing him like that is so fucked up. I was overcome with emotion. Everybody maintained their composure. My mother was very strong and maintained a strong face and was very industrious. My aunt seemed grateful to have company. It was so sad to see my strong cousin devastated by this disease and turned helpless in the twilight of his life. I hope that my sister’s seeing their older cousin like that gives them some perspective on how to navigate the sexual jungle.